2003-12-16 - 4:29 p.m.

So I did it. Wrote the bloody e-mail. All the insecurities from high school it seemed were justified, because as far as I can tell the reaction is terrible. Just terrible. I think i regret it, but I also think I would regret it more if I hadn't. But Grow Up! A girl sends you the most friendly "I'm not expecting anything of you but I want you to know... this is nice not scary... our friendship is most important but you matter to me and I think people should tell people..." And no reply. Worse yet, when I see him, he runs away. Am I actually that repulsive that I warrent being ran from!

I finished my biggest scariest final today.

I want to cry. But there's no time.

"And the difference, between me and you, I won't argue right or wrong but I have time to cry, my baby" Okay, Steve Stills. You win. I'm jealous.